Getting help with things used to be really difficult for me. I have always been taught to "suck it up" and just do what needs to be done. Unfortunately, there are times that we really need help and that we have to be ready to ask for it.
I was lucky to find such a person who has counselled me through a rough time and made me realize things about myself that I was afraid to acknowledge before. It did take some time and I had to learn to speak from the heart instead of overanalyze. Now that I have been able to do that, I actually feel ready to take on the world!
It's funny how we develop into adults without really knowing that our journey of development is coloured by the examples set for us when we are growing up. I am often reminded of the expression "Do as I say and not as I do". We, and adults before us, often forget that children learn not only by what the adults around them say AND, more likely, by how adults live their lives. Throughout the last four or five months, I have looked back and seen that much of my behaviour is a product of how I grew up.
That said, I have found ways not to doubt myself and stop contradicting the creative processes that have been locked up within me for a long time. I once studied music and never finished -for a myriad of reasons. The most important reason was that I had no confidence in my abilities and that I compared myself to others - something that was created by my parents' drive to make me successful at it. Finally, I could no longer deal with that pressure and just decided to quit. That translated into failure for me at the time. I am over that now. In fact, I am now self-studying the more technical aspects in hopes of finishing that education. And, when I do, I know that it will be because of my talents.
I know that, to this day, there will be people out there who doubt my abilities in music, in my photography, in my writing but in the long run, the only one I need to to have faith in me, is me. I cannot be bothered by those who offer critique of my work because in some cases, that feedback is valuable to learn from. However, it is not what should colour my opinions of my own abilities. Feedback is simply another life lesson.
I am embarking in this direction despite the fact that I know that it won't be all shining reviews and glory. But, I am not doing it for anyone except myself. If I happen to be lucky enough to receive "kudos" for my work, then that is just icing on the cake.
Throughout my life, I have met people who have to conquer the fears within them and admit things to themselves that maybe they don't want to hear. But, I can speak from experience when I say, that it is important to listen to the voice in your heart and not let your head do the talking all of the time! And even if you are not ready for the answer at that time, there will be an occasion that you will be prepared to use it for the positive.
After all, if you don't know yourself, who do you know?
I was lucky to find such a person who has counselled me through a rough time and made me realize things about myself that I was afraid to acknowledge before. It did take some time and I had to learn to speak from the heart instead of overanalyze. Now that I have been able to do that, I actually feel ready to take on the world!
It's funny how we develop into adults without really knowing that our journey of development is coloured by the examples set for us when we are growing up. I am often reminded of the expression "Do as I say and not as I do". We, and adults before us, often forget that children learn not only by what the adults around them say AND, more likely, by how adults live their lives. Throughout the last four or five months, I have looked back and seen that much of my behaviour is a product of how I grew up.
That said, I have found ways not to doubt myself and stop contradicting the creative processes that have been locked up within me for a long time. I once studied music and never finished -for a myriad of reasons. The most important reason was that I had no confidence in my abilities and that I compared myself to others - something that was created by my parents' drive to make me successful at it. Finally, I could no longer deal with that pressure and just decided to quit. That translated into failure for me at the time. I am over that now. In fact, I am now self-studying the more technical aspects in hopes of finishing that education. And, when I do, I know that it will be because of my talents.
I know that, to this day, there will be people out there who doubt my abilities in music, in my photography, in my writing but in the long run, the only one I need to to have faith in me, is me. I cannot be bothered by those who offer critique of my work because in some cases, that feedback is valuable to learn from. However, it is not what should colour my opinions of my own abilities. Feedback is simply another life lesson.
I am embarking in this direction despite the fact that I know that it won't be all shining reviews and glory. But, I am not doing it for anyone except myself. If I happen to be lucky enough to receive "kudos" for my work, then that is just icing on the cake.
Throughout my life, I have met people who have to conquer the fears within them and admit things to themselves that maybe they don't want to hear. But, I can speak from experience when I say, that it is important to listen to the voice in your heart and not let your head do the talking all of the time! And even if you are not ready for the answer at that time, there will be an occasion that you will be prepared to use it for the positive.
After all, if you don't know yourself, who do you know?
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